Ponderings...

I have had many things on my mind lately. Some affect me and some affect the ones I love and care about. I realize that this country has the best health care on the planet. This is a "good thing". However, we also have Medicare for those who are retired or disabled. Medicare throws people living with mental issues, cancer and AIDS under the train. If some rising stars in the Republican Party have their way this will get worse. Crazy people do not matter, Cancer patients will die any way, and AIDS patients are sinning queers. Who cares what happens to these people? As I write this  am wondering whether the "Party of Twelve" will defund A.D.A.P., the program that helps those of us living with AIDS get the life saving medicines we need. Yet all the Gay community can be worried about right now is who can marry whom. I guess Silence=Death is a thing of the past. Remember the Eighties? Remember the Civil Disobedience? Remember going to two or three funerals a week? I do. At 52 years old, I have buried all of my closest friends. Is my time coming? My father recently asked me what I consider to be a stupid question. "What will you do when you can not get your medicine?" Really? What the hell do you think I will do?  The answer is "Die" Daddy dearest.
Right now survival of those in our community is un-important, getting married is. What good is "Gay Marriage" if half of us are dead? Meanwhile, I get no sleep.
     I have a dear friend that falls into one of the catagories I mentioned earlier, mental illness. Right now he is at the very bottom looking up. From a recent conversation I have the feeling he sees no light at all. Now in a perfect world, his Medicare should allow him to check into a hospital to get the help he needs. Medicare will only pay about fifty percent of the cost, and when he has reached his annual maximum the hospital will boot him out whether or not he is ready. His family knows how delicate his situation is, and I must admit these people are even more hateful than my family!  His sister has no regard for his mental health. She continues to drop her self-centered bombs on my friend daily. She also tells him he is on disability because he is too lazy to work, not to mention accusing him of being a drunk and using drugs. The funny thing? This bitch and her backward clod of a husband are big old beer swilling drunks themselves! My friend chose to block her from calling him, her response? Send the police to conduct a Wellness Check because she is "so concerned". Some people are just too stupid to exist! She would be one. If I ever get my hands on her telephone number, she is going to get an old fashioned gay bitching out. Until then, I guess I will keep my friend in my prayers and offer the only things I have, my shoulders and my love.
     If there were a country the two of us could ex-pat and get the medical care we need, I would say let's pack our bags and go. But what country, including my own, wants to take care of an AIDS bag?
     Another thing I have been pondering is the new Taliban Christian Movement AKA the Tea Party. I watch with amusement as these fools continue to shoot themselves in the foot, yet the Evangelical Fundamentalist Christians continue to worship the quick sand these morons walk on. They want to make laws and constituional ammendments for any and everything they think is sinful, not to mention finding ways to overturn Supreme Court rulings they do not agree with. "Let's re-institute Don't Ask Don't Tell, overturn Roe versus Wade, defund A.D.A.P., and enforce D.O.M.A.. Then God will love us again and all will be well". Bullshit. Why not just admit they would love to copy Nazi Germany and eliminate all who do not fit their ideas for the Master Race of narrow minded, inbred, and backwards Christians. Just remember this you morons, Christ said "The greatest Commandment is that you love one another" there is no "but" or "except for" in that statement. Christ also said "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone". Or does you translation of the Bible not have those statements in it? Just pondering...
Hugs-Garry